A while ago I was supost to film a Thoughts from my Hometown video for the 5ABP channel. Unfortunately I got so swamped with school work, that the video never made it up (or edited). I was looking though footage on my laptop and found this gem. ;)
Friday, April 29, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Comments on a Video
God that's awful. It's sad that when your a female traveling alone how frequent these situations can come up. A few years a go I was studying in Costa Rica. I was young, 15, and even though I was in a group, one of the guys, older, maybe 20, tried to kiss me in the movie theater. It was honestly one of the most horrifying experiences of my life. It's absolutely ridiculous how some men objectify woman to be worth money. Stay safe.
@JustJAINE Oh GOD. I hope you punched them, or someone elce did for you. Really horrid. Stay safe too!
@missxrojas I've been sitting here thinking about this video, and for the longest time I couldn't figure out why I felt so bothered and angry about your story and of the objectification of woman. I, like you, consider my self "hardened" to the random cat-call, but I think what bothers me the most is how violated situations like those you described can make one feel as well as how often they are undermined. For a really long time after the almost kiss in the movie theatre I thought it was my fault, that I had lead this guy on. This was not helped by the fact that he stalked me and told me absolutely ridiculous statements that he thought I was older, how it was my fault, and that I was being rude for ignoring him. So, yeah, in my case I was emotionally violated as well as, in my opinion, legally stalked. And in some ways you were violated too. One guy licked your hand, that while mostly gross that is still invasive. And they other guy tried to pay you to have sex with him and then proceeded to verbally slap you. The fact that you had to sit there angry and I would venture afraid is so wrong. It's heartbreaking the bus driver still didn't want to let you on the bus. That just adds to my discontent. Some people just don't care and some find nothing wrong with what is going on or continue to blame outlaying factors. Maybe I'm over reacting, maybe not... I just find it so angering.
Doctor Who - First Imprisons
I watched the first episode of Doctor Who season six tonight. It was ok, but I'm not as drawn in and shocked as I normally am. It was fine and there were plenty of parts that I enjoyed, but at the same time I felt like the over all plot was a cop out for the season 5 finale. This whole idea of the doctor interfering with his own time zone bothers me. A LOT. It's not how the game is supposed to be played. You can't interferer with your own time, thats one of the first rules you learn with the doctor. That said, I'm going to log off. It's 2 in the morning and I still need to drive home from a friends house. You can expect either a more detailed blog post on this matter or a video in the near future.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
General Update
Tonight is one of those nights where I continue to click the refresh button over and over in hope that someone will have posed something new in the last 10 seconds it took me to click refresh last time. It is rather fruitless and makes me wonder what I'm doing with my life.
A general update on what's going on in Jaine's world (because I know you are all incredibly interested); my date has been post poned to next weekend. Which, in all honestly is for the best because I am still a little sick. My 2 weeks into being dairy free hasn't been as hard as I thought. Though, unfortunately, it may turn out that I am either lactose intolerant or allergic to dairy. Either way, it means a lot of food limitations. I'm really going to miss cheese if this is the case. And being able to eat out. I'm trying to think positively though.This could provide me the wonderful opportunity of learning how to cook more, as well as I could try becoming vegan or at least more vegan. There really are a lot of food options out there, I just have to figure out where to look.
School is going well, but I have alot of work this weekend, and I really wanted to have/ go to a Doctor Who party. But I don't know if that is happening. Also it's easter, and I don't know what's happening with that in my family. Ever since 8th grade I haven't been too fond of the holiday. I feel like I was cheated out of fun that year. I don't know. It's just since then, I've always been afraid that I wont get anything. I don't know why this holiday is particularly distressing, I've not received gifts on other holidays such as Christmas and my birthday, and you would think those would be more upsetting... maybe because this was the first holiday. Sigh... well regardless of the reason, I hope I get something this year, though it doesn't look too promising.
A general update on what's going on in Jaine's world (because I know you are all incredibly interested); my date has been post poned to next weekend. Which, in all honestly is for the best because I am still a little sick. My 2 weeks into being dairy free hasn't been as hard as I thought. Though, unfortunately, it may turn out that I am either lactose intolerant or allergic to dairy. Either way, it means a lot of food limitations. I'm really going to miss cheese if this is the case. And being able to eat out. I'm trying to think positively though.This could provide me the wonderful opportunity of learning how to cook more, as well as I could try becoming vegan or at least more vegan. There really are a lot of food options out there, I just have to figure out where to look.
School is going well, but I have alot of work this weekend, and I really wanted to have/ go to a Doctor Who party. But I don't know if that is happening. Also it's easter, and I don't know what's happening with that in my family. Ever since 8th grade I haven't been too fond of the holiday. I feel like I was cheated out of fun that year. I don't know. It's just since then, I've always been afraid that I wont get anything. I don't know why this holiday is particularly distressing, I've not received gifts on other holidays such as Christmas and my birthday, and you would think those would be more upsetting... maybe because this was the first holiday. Sigh... well regardless of the reason, I hope I get something this year, though it doesn't look too promising.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Quotes
I watched Rosianna's video today. Here are some of my favorite quotes. I'm planing on making a video response tomorrow, so expect that.
"And I worry that if I don't stop for a second I'm going to miss it...but then I worry that if I stop for a second I'm going to miss it."
"I worry that I'm running out of time. It just freaks me out."
"There are all these crisis that we have in our life especially you know death being a big one of them. That moment of panic and anxiety and you know not being able to breath that isn't entirely asma related. That is something we should be looking more at now that we live in a consumer driven society. Where we are told more clearly than ever before what we should be concerned about."
"I worry that because we are in this state of crisis we are transferring everything from harry potter to youtube in a way that isn't healthy. We're trying to make it a commodity straight away. I don't know how successful or unsuccessful that is. That's just not how I see youtube. I want to make videos that you like but I also want to make videos that I like. I can feel something close to proud of. More videos that I can show my friends or my family. Its nice to be able to transfer what you do to terms that are slightly more understandable to other people."
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Connection
A natural part of growing up is making connections and networking. And despite being only nineteen, I've been finding myself making a whole bunch of these lately. Not to long ago I believed "having connections" was a poplite way of using people. Ever since Infinitus my thoughts on this matter have started to change. For example, going up to LA to see a wrock concert and driving back late at night just isn't a wise choice. Therefor, I use my "connections" in LA to stay the night at my friends house for free. While my trips to LA can really be boiled down to "just staying with friends", going to Disneyland yesterday seemed a little more on the connection side.
Some of the people I follow on twitter had some extra tickets that they didn't need so they were selling them at a discounted price. I of corse having wanted to go to Disney for ages, was excited to be able to A, afford a ticket and B, have a reason to talk my friends into going with me. In this case both parties benefited from this exchange, but I have to wonder about my values and how they have changed.
In the car ride up I was explaining how I got the tickets, my friend said, "Oh, I should hang out more with potter people they have connections." While this statement was said innocently enough, it got me thinking about the connections I do have. For the last two years I've been working hard at getting known in the Harry Potter fandom. I don't particularly want to be "fandom famous" or any of that complicated jazz. I just want to be more than yet another stalker fan. I always feel so awkward coming up to someone in a wizard rock band or who watch on youtube to saying hello. I feel like I know so much about them, yet they know absolutely nothing about me. So in order to change this, I try to put myself in the right place at the right time in order to have real conversations with these people I admire. Though, I must admit, most of it is sheer dumb luck. And weither it is because I've said the right things to the right people or just because I've made some freaking awesome friends, I seem to have connections all over the world. And for some reason, these connections and all this networking feels like I'm just making friends. Maybe it's not so bad after all.
Some of the people I follow on twitter had some extra tickets that they didn't need so they were selling them at a discounted price. I of corse having wanted to go to Disney for ages, was excited to be able to A, afford a ticket and B, have a reason to talk my friends into going with me. In this case both parties benefited from this exchange, but I have to wonder about my values and how they have changed.
In the car ride up I was explaining how I got the tickets, my friend said, "Oh, I should hang out more with potter people they have connections." While this statement was said innocently enough, it got me thinking about the connections I do have. For the last two years I've been working hard at getting known in the Harry Potter fandom. I don't particularly want to be "fandom famous" or any of that complicated jazz. I just want to be more than yet another stalker fan. I always feel so awkward coming up to someone in a wizard rock band or who watch on youtube to saying hello. I feel like I know so much about them, yet they know absolutely nothing about me. So in order to change this, I try to put myself in the right place at the right time in order to have real conversations with these people I admire. Though, I must admit, most of it is sheer dumb luck. And weither it is because I've said the right things to the right people or just because I've made some freaking awesome friends, I seem to have connections all over the world. And for some reason, these connections and all this networking feels like I'm just making friends. Maybe it's not so bad after all.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Long Distance Relationships
I've had wonderful opportunities to travel all over the US and Northern America and I've been lucky enough to make friends friends with some of the people I've met. As a Nerdfighters and/or Harry Potter fans* you've probably had much the same experience as me. You meet someone completely awesome, and then they end up hours away if not a plane ride. It's hard sometimes when half your best friends live in different states, and when everyone around you just doesn't get you. I would never give up the amazing friends I've made to have "normal" life. But sometimes I wish I didn't have to call Skype as a social event on friday. When ever I get like this I always try to increase my self-pity by reading one of owlssayhooot's old blog posts. I'm so lucky to have the long distance friends that I have, but seriously, cant you just make nerdfighter island already!
*If your in the Potter fandom your a Nerdfighter, FYI.
*If your in the Potter fandom your a Nerdfighter, FYI.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
...that we're on borrowed time...
This is how I feel. I miss you all so much! Every single person I have met though the Harry Potter fandom, weither at a convention or just online, you have inspired me. Maybe one day soon I can see you.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
"I'm Saying Nothing"
Honestly I don't know what to write about. I have 15 minuets to make this post and my head feels as scattered as ever. Not in the I'm so confused about life, emo, angst way, but in the life is so good, complicated yet happy way.
Tonight I:
- wrote an essay on gender stereotypes. The images on magazine covers astonish me.
- read Lauren Fairweather's blog, and grinned the whole time. I honestly can hardly wait for summer.
- had a very interesting conversation with Cody. And then completely different, yet equally awesome conversation with Scarlett.
- made plans with someone special to go to lunch! It's completely platonic...but maybe if I'm brave enough I'll ask her out on a proper date. The problem is I'm awful busy and so is she.
- actually studied for a theater history test that isn't for a week.
It was a rather good day. Tuesday I have to make the 100th video for the Ben-Pals youtube channel. Everyone expects it to be really great, but I don't really know what I want to do. I was thinking of spoofing a bunch of different youtube channels subscriber land marks, but that's not creative. Plus now that I'm writing this, I resized that subscriber and numer of videos is not the same thing. Basically I just need to make a well edited, maybe with good jump cuts video. Oh and I need to distance myself from the camera more, because I look too up in your face in a lot of my vlogs.
And with that, I'll bid you au du.
PS: What's the title reference? It's easy!
Tonight I:
- wrote an essay on gender stereotypes. The images on magazine covers astonish me.
- read Lauren Fairweather's blog, and grinned the whole time. I honestly can hardly wait for summer.
- had a very interesting conversation with Cody. And then completely different, yet equally awesome conversation with Scarlett.
- made plans with someone special to go to lunch! It's completely platonic...but maybe if I'm brave enough I'll ask her out on a proper date. The problem is I'm awful busy and so is she.
- actually studied for a theater history test that isn't for a week.
It was a rather good day. Tuesday I have to make the 100th video for the Ben-Pals youtube channel. Everyone expects it to be really great, but I don't really know what I want to do. I was thinking of spoofing a bunch of different youtube channels subscriber land marks, but that's not creative. Plus now that I'm writing this, I resized that subscriber and numer of videos is not the same thing. Basically I just need to make a well edited, maybe with good jump cuts video. Oh and I need to distance myself from the camera more, because I look too up in your face in a lot of my vlogs.
And with that, I'll bid you au du.
PS: What's the title reference? It's easy!
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Living in the Moment
Last night I had the wonderful opportunity of visiting with one of my best friends who lives a plane ride away. As I got ready to meet her I packed both my video camera and my digital camera. The plan was we could take lots of photos to remember the good times. The end result was despite dragging my camera bag around, I didn't take a single photo.
It seems like my generation has an obsession with documenting our every thought and action. Whether it be in a blog, such as this, Facebook status updates, or billions of pictures and videos. Sometime I wonder if, in our obsession to document, we forget to really experience life. I had a fabulous time with Cody, and if I had been taking photos of us together, I wonder if I would have enjoyed the night as much as I did. While I do miss the opportunity of having new photos to up up on my wall, I don't wish the night had gone any other way.
It seems like my generation has an obsession with documenting our every thought and action. Whether it be in a blog, such as this, Facebook status updates, or billions of pictures and videos. Sometime I wonder if, in our obsession to document, we forget to really experience life. I had a fabulous time with Cody, and if I had been taking photos of us together, I wonder if I would have enjoyed the night as much as I did. While I do miss the opportunity of having new photos to up up on my wall, I don't wish the night had gone any other way.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Tech was my destiny?
Ever since I was a little kid I have loved drawing maps and blueprints. What I loved most was how everything fit perfectly into place. Most of the time I didn't move the furniture in my room around. The planing was what was important to me. Last night, I decided it was time to switch up my room again. Above is a "blueprint" of how I'm thinking of designing my room. The huge move is swinging the bed around to give me more free space in the center of the room.
Did you ever have any strange hobbies as a kid that you still do today? Leave your answer in comments.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Hi I'm Jaine, not Jaine Torres.
Do you say Melissa or Melissa Anelli? Alex or Alex Carpenter? Does it depend on who you are talking to? Does it matter if you are friends?
I've been thinking about types of friendships a lot lately. I've personally had the fortune to be able to travel a lot lately and see a lot of my friends and make new ones, some more known than others. Yesterday, when I posted about my trip to LA, I refereed to Alex Carpenter as both Alex and Alex Carpenter in the same paragraph.
I've been thinking about types of friendships a lot lately. I've personally had the fortune to be able to travel a lot lately and see a lot of my friends and make new ones, some more known than others. Yesterday, when I posted about my trip to LA, I refereed to Alex Carpenter as both Alex and Alex Carpenter in the same paragraph.
Alex Carpenter played an awesome set, possible one of the best I've seen...
That's right, I got invited to my first hotel party. There were a couple locals, us Final Battle people and one of the Quiddtch teams for a while. Later Alex and "Katniss" came.What's interesting to me is why I used each name. In the first sentence I used his full name as a way to recognize his musician status. In that situation he was a star and I was a fan. In the second sentence, I refer to him as just Alex to show that in this situation we were equals. I think it's important to remember that no matter who you are talking to, be yourself. For me that's an intellectual with original ideas. How can I expect to be respected if all I see is the star not the human.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Quiddtch Party Forever
Right, BEDA.... all ready a fail. I think this month is going to be more like BAEDA (Blog Almost Every Day in April.) Saturday I couldn't post because I didn't have access to a computer all day. And Sunday I came home to butt load of house work that I didn't finish till 1am. The end result of this is no blog for yesterday and the day before.
On Saturday morning, I got up and drove to LA to attend the West Cost Quiddtch Cup! It was pretty epic, I must say. Most of the day I spent selling raffle tickets and running carnival games to fundraise for The Final Battle. I personally sold 44 tickets. It took me back to the days of girl scout cookies. I didn't get to see that many games Saturday, but the one game I did take time to watch was the kids Quiddtch match. It was honestly the cutest thing I have ever scene. They had a little kid snitch who was probably better than most of the college snitches. Snitches are devious speedy little things. The only rule for the snitch is they can do whatever they want. What was most impressive about this little kid snitch was he ran strait for about 20 minuets. The seekers would switch out, but he kept running, jumping over chairs, and running though the crowd. I might have some video of that on my personal youtube channel later in the week. I'm not sure if it came out because I was borrowing Amanda's flip which has a broken screen.
Later that night there was a wrock show at the local Barns&Noble. Alex Carpenter played an awesome set, possible one of the best I've seen (other than at con's). Tracy and Noa signed one of his songs, "APWBD". You can see a video of it here. After the show I bought Spells From A Broken Wand, the final Remus Lupins CD I've been missing. Dinner and then a party. That's right, I got invited to my first hotel party. There were a couple locals, us Final Battle people and one of the Quiddtch teams for a while. Later Alex and "Katniss" came. Honestly, it was epic and the most included and happy I've felt for a while. I didn't have to pretend like I was anyone but myself and that self was considered kinda cool. Mostly we talked about Buffy and Doctor Who, two of my favorite TV shows presently. It was honestly a huge nerd fest, butterbeer included. I didn't actually drink because I had to drive, and I'm finding I don't really like alcohol at all. I tried a sip of the butterbeer (which was freaking good) and I tried beer for the first time. I don't like it at all. All and all, a very successful night. Plus Rob promised me Star Wars marathon an to get me drunk if I wanted to. So I have that to look forward to next time I come to LA!
We got back to Tracy's around 3:30am preparing to get up at 8. Four hours of sleep for the win. Sunday, the plan was the same, promote The Final Battle and watch Quiddtch. Only today Tracy and Joe (Dancing Hagrid) had work. I helped set up but, I was exhausted from the night before and didn't want to deal with people/the booth so I spent most of the day watching the games with Amanda and her friend Brianna. The teams were as awesome as expected. I think the best snitch move was wen the two snitches switch shirts to confuse the seekers (two game are played at once). I told you they were devious. I stayed till the final, congratulations to ASU! Then drove home listening to really loud wrock and singing (shouting) along. Although it was only around 4pm it was pretty hard to stay concentrated without the really loud music.
Over all, this weekend rates up there on the list of the best. I think that in my last post I may have been suffering from some Post-Potter Depression. Whenever I get to hang out with such awesome people, its so hard to go home and leave it all behind. I think this is one of the reasons I want to move to LA, or any other major city. As much as I love San Diego, I just don't know very many hard core Harry Potter fans. It gets kind of lonely sometimes. Lucky and the most amazing of all is, Cody is coming to Irvine next weekend which means I get to visit her! Super ecstatic!
PS: How many wrock references did you catch?
On Saturday morning, I got up and drove to LA to attend the West Cost Quiddtch Cup! It was pretty epic, I must say. Most of the day I spent selling raffle tickets and running carnival games to fundraise for The Final Battle. I personally sold 44 tickets. It took me back to the days of girl scout cookies. I didn't get to see that many games Saturday, but the one game I did take time to watch was the kids Quiddtch match. It was honestly the cutest thing I have ever scene. They had a little kid snitch who was probably better than most of the college snitches. Snitches are devious speedy little things. The only rule for the snitch is they can do whatever they want. What was most impressive about this little kid snitch was he ran strait for about 20 minuets. The seekers would switch out, but he kept running, jumping over chairs, and running though the crowd. I might have some video of that on my personal youtube channel later in the week. I'm not sure if it came out because I was borrowing Amanda's flip which has a broken screen.
Later that night there was a wrock show at the local Barns&Noble. Alex Carpenter played an awesome set, possible one of the best I've seen (other than at con's). Tracy and Noa signed one of his songs, "APWBD". You can see a video of it here. After the show I bought Spells From A Broken Wand, the final Remus Lupins CD I've been missing. Dinner and then a party. That's right, I got invited to my first hotel party. There were a couple locals, us Final Battle people and one of the Quiddtch teams for a while. Later Alex and "Katniss" came. Honestly, it was epic and the most included and happy I've felt for a while. I didn't have to pretend like I was anyone but myself and that self was considered kinda cool. Mostly we talked about Buffy and Doctor Who, two of my favorite TV shows presently. It was honestly a huge nerd fest, butterbeer included. I didn't actually drink because I had to drive, and I'm finding I don't really like alcohol at all. I tried a sip of the butterbeer (which was freaking good) and I tried beer for the first time. I don't like it at all. All and all, a very successful night. Plus Rob promised me Star Wars marathon an to get me drunk if I wanted to. So I have that to look forward to next time I come to LA!
We got back to Tracy's around 3:30am preparing to get up at 8. Four hours of sleep for the win. Sunday, the plan was the same, promote The Final Battle and watch Quiddtch. Only today Tracy and Joe (Dancing Hagrid) had work. I helped set up but, I was exhausted from the night before and didn't want to deal with people/the booth so I spent most of the day watching the games with Amanda and her friend Brianna. The teams were as awesome as expected. I think the best snitch move was wen the two snitches switch shirts to confuse the seekers (two game are played at once). I told you they were devious. I stayed till the final, congratulations to ASU! Then drove home listening to really loud wrock and singing (shouting) along. Although it was only around 4pm it was pretty hard to stay concentrated without the really loud music.
Over all, this weekend rates up there on the list of the best. I think that in my last post I may have been suffering from some Post-Potter Depression. Whenever I get to hang out with such awesome people, its so hard to go home and leave it all behind. I think this is one of the reasons I want to move to LA, or any other major city. As much as I love San Diego, I just don't know very many hard core Harry Potter fans. It gets kind of lonely sometimes. Lucky and the most amazing of all is, Cody is coming to Irvine next weekend which means I get to visit her! Super ecstatic!
PS: How many wrock references did you catch?
Friday, April 1, 2011
Relationship Rant
I decided just now that I'm going to try to do BEDA (Blog Every Day in April). The ironic part of this is mostly that I have a viewer ship of 0 on this blog. None the less I'm going to try. Part of what makes this project so appealing to me is I really want to sort though the emotional chaos I have been feeling in relation to my life. In theory if I write about it perhaps it will make more sense.
All the emotional angst can be summarized by one word, "relationships". Typical, I know, though in this this case I don't mean just romantic relationships, I also am including friendships. First lets talk about my friends problem. Lately I've just been feeling a disconnect between myself and those I associate with day to day. I feel like I just sit around online, and they do things. I want to have time to have a social life. Most of my problems come down to time management. I've been flying around and doing awesome things all over the country for a month, but somehow the relationships at home have just slipped. Sometimes it's that I just don't want to deal with people that are petty and obsessed with their boyfriends. This brings me to my second problem. I've noticed over the year that whenever anyone starts talking about their boyfriend or see PDA, I immediately get annoyed. I have come to recognize this feeling as jealousy. I am jealous that they can love whoever they want and public and I have to hide because I am too scared to ask the girl I like out. This is stupid. I love her so much, I have for a long time. So today, I decided I would ask her out. I got all dressed up, then chickened out going to school. So I texted her to see if she wanted to hang out, and she's sick... Sigh, I have all this pent up energy. I want to go out and party, instead I stay home and write a blog because I have no one to hang with.
Yep this was defiantly a rant and also why people don't read my blog.
All the emotional angst can be summarized by one word, "relationships". Typical, I know, though in this this case I don't mean just romantic relationships, I also am including friendships. First lets talk about my friends problem. Lately I've just been feeling a disconnect between myself and those I associate with day to day. I feel like I just sit around online, and they do things. I want to have time to have a social life. Most of my problems come down to time management. I've been flying around and doing awesome things all over the country for a month, but somehow the relationships at home have just slipped. Sometimes it's that I just don't want to deal with people that are petty and obsessed with their boyfriends. This brings me to my second problem. I've noticed over the year that whenever anyone starts talking about their boyfriend or see PDA, I immediately get annoyed. I have come to recognize this feeling as jealousy. I am jealous that they can love whoever they want and public and I have to hide because I am too scared to ask the girl I like out. This is stupid. I love her so much, I have for a long time. So today, I decided I would ask her out. I got all dressed up, then chickened out going to school. So I texted her to see if she wanted to hang out, and she's sick... Sigh, I have all this pent up energy. I want to go out and party, instead I stay home and write a blog because I have no one to hang with.
Yep this was defiantly a rant and also why people don't read my blog.
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