Quotes

I watched Rosianna's video today. Here are some of my favorite quotes. I'm planing on making a video response tomorrow, so expect that. 

"And I worry that if I don't stop for a second I'm going to miss it...but then I worry that if I stop for a second I'm going to miss it."

"I worry that I'm running out of time. It just freaks me out."

"There are all these crisis that we have in our life especially you know death being a big one of them. That moment of panic and anxiety and you know not being able to breath that isn't entirely asma related. That is something we should be looking more at now that we live in a consumer driven society. Where we are told more clearly than ever before what we should be concerned about."

"I worry that because we are in this state of crisis we are transferring everything from harry potter to youtube in a way that isn't healthy. We're trying to make it a commodity straight away. I don't know how  successful or unsuccessful that is. That's just not how I see youtube. I want to make videos that you like but I also want to make videos that I like. I can feel something close to proud of. More videos that I can show my friends or my family. Its nice to be able to transfer what you do to terms that are slightly more understandable to other people."

Connection

A natural part of growing up is making connections and networking. And despite being only nineteen, I've been finding myself making a whole bunch of these lately. Not to long ago I believed "having connections" was a poplite way of using people. Ever since Infinitus my thoughts on this matter have started to change. For example, going up to LA to see a wrock concert and driving back late at night just isn't a wise choice. Therefor, I use my "connections" in LA to stay the night at my friends house for free. While my trips to LA can really be boiled down to "just staying with friends", going to Disneyland yesterday seemed a little more on the connection side.

Some of the people I follow on twitter had some extra tickets that they didn't need so they were selling them at a discounted price. I of corse having wanted to go to Disney for ages, was excited to be able to A, afford a ticket and B, have a reason to talk my friends into going with me. In this case both parties benefited from this exchange, but I have to wonder about my values and how they have changed.

In the car ride up I was explaining how I got the tickets, my friend said, "Oh, I should hang out more with potter people they have connections." While this statement was said innocently enough, it got me thinking about the connections I do have. For the last two years I've been working hard at getting known in the Harry Potter fandom. I don't particularly want to be "fandom famous" or any of that complicated jazz. I just want to be more than yet another stalker fan. I always feel so awkward coming up to someone in a wizard rock band or who watch on youtube to saying hello. I feel like I know so much about them, yet they know absolutely nothing about me. So in order to change this, I try to put myself in the right place at the right time in order to have real conversations with these people I admire. Though, I must admit, most of it is sheer dumb luck. And weither it is because I've said the right things to the right people or just because I've made some freaking awesome friends, I seem to have connections all over the world. And for some reason, these connections and all this networking feels like I'm just making friends. Maybe it's not so bad after all.

Why today is awesome!

Today I am going to Disneyland! I'm so freaking EXCITED!!!

Long Distance Relationships

I've had wonderful opportunities to travel all over the US and Northern America and I've been lucky enough to make friends friends with some of the people I've met. As a Nerdfighters and/or Harry Potter fans* you've probably had much the same experience as me. You meet someone completely awesome, and then they end up hours away if not a plane ride. It's hard sometimes when half your best friends live in different states, and when everyone around you just doesn't get you. I would never give up the amazing friends I've made to have "normal" life. But sometimes I wish I didn't have to call Skype as a social event on friday. When ever I get like this I always try to increase my self-pity by reading one of owlssayhooot's old blog posts. I'm so lucky to have the long distance friends that I have, but seriously, cant you just make nerdfighter island already!

*If your in the Potter fandom your a Nerdfighter, FYI.

For Tonights Entertainment...

...that we're on borrowed time...

This is how I feel. I miss you all so much! Every single person I have met though the Harry Potter fandom, weither at a convention or just online, you have inspired me. Maybe one day soon I can see you.

"I'm Saying Nothing"

Honestly I don't know what to write about. I have 15 minuets to make this post and my head feels as scattered as ever. Not in the I'm so confused about life, emo, angst way, but in the life is so good, complicated yet happy way.

Tonight I:
- wrote an essay on gender stereotypes. The images on magazine covers astonish me.
- read Lauren Fairweather's blog, and grinned the whole time. I honestly can hardly wait for summer.
- had a very interesting conversation with Cody. And then completely different, yet equally awesome conversation with Scarlett.
- made plans with someone special to go to lunch! It's completely platonic...but maybe if I'm brave enough I'll ask her out on a proper date. The problem is I'm awful busy and so is she.
- actually studied for a theater history test that isn't for a week.

It was a rather good day. Tuesday I have to make the 100th video for the Ben-Pals youtube channel. Everyone expects it to be really great, but I don't really know what I want to do. I was thinking of spoofing a bunch of different youtube channels subscriber land marks, but that's not creative. Plus now that I'm writing this, I resized that subscriber and numer of videos is not the same thing. Basically I just need to make a well edited, maybe with good jump cuts video. Oh and I need to distance myself from the camera more, because I look too up in your face in a lot of my vlogs.

And with that, I'll bid you au du.

PS: What's the title reference? It's easy!